58. 365 Days

Listen to 365 Days by Ali

It's been awhile aye? and deleted the previous post.
What kind of a good friend am i if i can't be there for a friend even she/he rant about the stupid shit aye?

The hiatus all this while is basically up for no reason.
Ain't no busy with work
Ain't no busy with life or anything
just busy with lotsa burden thinking and thoughts

A LOT !

I kind of thinking if a new job will change my state of mind..
and having lot of money will change/solve everything.

At this moment applying for job online , run to post office for postage stamp and getting an envelope from time to time is a routine and i like it. Now i'm keep on waiting. Sometimes i don't mind if im getting any answer or not. I gave no thought of it. seem like i just enjoy the process of documentation and postage tho. sigh.

Now get back to room feel like an escape. fill up with writing , painting and playing with Karev. oh forget to mention Karev is a month year old now and jumping all day. i pick him up on the street and now he's a friend and a companion even he's getting annoy all the time and understand my korean much better compare to my Bahasa or English. lol

i do not know where this post lead to. just a random thought. kinda feel lost and empty. this is a shit. a shit day and a shit week. i just do not care on anything. call me insensitive. im honored for it. Now the priorities is mom , money , work and karev. friend? i guess my presence won't change much. i'm not interested anything about them and so are they. now a hang-out is like a so and so. nothing important to talk about and silence is the subject.

I'm thinking about going back home for good. this place is sickening me. never thought i'll leave a place that i used to call a place for freedom. i had enough.

well this is it for now. good day everyone.